Mandy x Lynn x

YAY

Good things about today: NEW TV, CTFxC hoodie finally came. I went to HuHot. Got ice cream. Me and Jon sat by the park. Cleaned out the garage. Cleaned the house. Cleaned the grill so I can grill out tomorrow. Opened the windows. Washed and cleaned my car. :) & it’s only 8:00 I can still relax before bed. :) YAY for tomorrow off. Playing Bioshock 2 and grilling out with Marty, also trying to fix my car tomorrow.

♥

I’m super excited, a friend asked me to sell my prints and she said she would buy some from me. I’ve always wanted to do this and I’m going to find a way. Before or during summer for sure. I will be ecstatic if I actually sold a lot of my prints. It would mean the world to me. Now I need to get my ass in gear and start taking more NEW pics.

Depressed.

I’ve been slacking on paying my bills lately, due to not having the money to pay them. It’s depressing when you get a letter in the mail threatening your credit.

I feel so enclosed. I don’t know what to do anymore. I don’t make that much an hour, I don’t work as many hours as I wish I would. But work has been stressing me out alot, and I’ve been sick alot. It’s taking a toll on me. Those few weeks I was out with the swine flu have really fucked everything up. 

I feel like as soon as soon as I get caught up on something I have another reminder of something I need to do. I catch up on a bill and pay it off and then I have to go to the Dr. or the ER for something and then, wham! another bill.

I just don’t know what to do anymore or where to turn. Life never hands me good cards. I’m scared to see how much worse it’s going to get in the future. Sometimes I feel like I was a mistake.

ill.

Feeling under the weather. I took off for the day today, well tomorrow. (I still haven’t went to bed yet.) 

I’ve been working a lot and I just need some rest.

Hopefully I’ll get the stuff done I didn’t over the weekend.

I got a cold and a stomach ache. Boo.

Hopefully it’s nice out tomorrow, maybe I just need some sunshine.

I’ve been so lazy all winter long, I need to get my ass up.

It’s beautiful outside.

Opened the windows again. Still finishing up on cleaning and wash. Had a good dinner with Jon, Sue, Chris and Amy. Went grocery shopping. Went to Home Depot to get a shelf and some lights. Jon just got done painting the garbage cans. It smells like spray paint in here so I opened all the windows back up again. Whew. Listening to All American Rejects again. Doing laundry and I’m going to start folding some clothes, put the dishes away and then probably watch a movie and call it a night. Very tired today, my eyes are sore.

We’re having a cookout on Sunday over at our place, we invited Jon’s mom, Chris and Amy. I can’t believe it’s 60-65 degrees today. It was absolutely wonderful out. I felt amazing and had tons of energy. I even volunteered to take out the garbage and do the litter boxes, which I dread. It’s just awesome to know that winter is over. And even if it snows again it won’t stay for too long. 

I saw ducks and birds today and it just made me feel excited inside. I can’t wait to break out my camera and start taking some pictures. Start on my portfolio and get all my pictures printed off. Maybe then I can start looking around for a photography job. I’ve even thought about selling my pictures online too.

Alrighty, all for now. Later.

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Windows open again. My feet are cold. I just got done cleaning the house. Listened to a bunch of amazing songs on shuffle while I cleaned. Waiting for the boy to come home with Starbucks. Relaxing. I feel rejuvenated. I love how beautiful it is outside today, reminded me of summer. I miss popsicles. Birds chirping. Taking naps on a sunny day. Cold showers. Cook outs. Staying up late. Going on walks. Going to the park. Taking pictures. Camping. Concerts. Drinking with friends. This all reminds me of summer, I can’t wait in a way. But I can’t deal with the heat most of the time. If it would only be 60 degrees all year round. <3

Yawn

“It’s impossible to walk in this muck, no pleasure at all.”

“Tell me you brought the golf shoes man!”

Good night.

Today <3

Windows open. Smells wonderful. Pretty much awake. Showering soon. Work from 5 to 10p. Then home to spend much needed time with the hubbs. Hopefully Girl Scout Cookies today, nom nom noms. I can’t wait for work on Saturday 2 to 6p with Lisa. Then off for two days. <3 Lunch or Dinner with the Mother in Law on Sunday && then some R&R for the rest of the weekend. <3333

OH & tons of CLEANING, lol. <3

Dear Tumblr.

Sorry I forgot about you, you may be able to help me with my venting issues.

I promise I will be more nice to you and feed you all the words you desire.

Love, Amanda. <3

Christmas Eve.

I’m trying this site on for size. Got out of work early tonight & had a great day. Relaxing the next 5 days in a row. <3 Merry Christmas.